Love & Truth Challenge Day 3: Lovers And Friends.

Last/most recent love... What they meant/mean to you?

Anthony sent me a friend request three years ago. I accepted. He told me he's from Boston, but was about to move to L.A. and stay with his mom. He and his wife seperated. He was my bestie and we talked about EVERYTHING! He knew more about me then most of the men in my life. For two years he attempted taking our friendship to the next level. I wasnt interested because he had a girlfriend and there were things that bugged me about him. Whenever a guy looks like he's getting serious about me, I usually panic and try to sabotage things by finding any excuse NOT to hook up. He had a front tooth missing from when he was in a car accident years ago. He was hella dorky, but in reality I was scared. I told him the truth, that I didnt know if I was hooking up with him because I truly had feelings or because I was lonely.

I went to visit him spring break of last year while I brought my son to disneyland. We hung out, then my clothes fell off...lol. He wanted to hang out with us that week, but I lied and said I had other plans. Even after I went back home, he still wanted us to be together. He even broke up with bis girlfriend. Yeah, I know that was wrong. I told him if he wasnt serious about a commitment with me, I dont even want to go there.

Now I officially have a man and it was nice! We alternated visiting one another each month and I never had to come out of pocket for nothing. With him taking me out, the PDA's, meeting his mom and planning our future together, I didnt know how to take that. I was so used to dudes coming through at night to fuck me and not acknowledging a bitch in the daytime, the normal stuff he did seemed foreign to me. I mean, he wanted to color coordinate our clothes when we went out... HUH?!? Just as things was working out...

He was M.I.A.

He wouldnt call or answer my calls for a whole week and had lame ass excuses when he did. What I did to the ex chic came back on me and I was crushed! I found naked pics of her in his phone, she would call and I found out he was still fuckin her. Karma is a BITCH & she bit me in the ass! When I got tired of the back and forth, I left him alone and he moved to Florida three months ago...

Or so he said.

Even though he lied countless times as much as he cheated, for the past year, he did make me feel wanted, loved and happy that he wanted to be seen with me on his arm. And for the first time, a man told me that he loved me. Whether or not it was true, only God knows.