Love & Truth Challenge Day 27: It Sucks To Be You Right Now.

Does anyone you've broke up with still love and pursue you?

Yes, but I think its a game to him. We still talk, because truthfully, its so damn hard for me to let go. Thats always been my problem. He says he wants to work things out. I think its just the loneliness talking, because if there was a woman in his life, he wouldnt be talking to me. He moved to the east coast and doesnt know anybody, so we talk daily. He talks about reconciling, but I dont want to. With him being thousands of miles away and us lacking the funds to visit, makes it easier for me to get over him. With all the shit that has happened with us, I will NEVER trust him with my heart again. I know what I need to do, but its hard to do it. How do I cut my bestie out of my life? We are GREAT friends, even greater lovers, but we made a horrible couple. He still makes me smile and laugh, but the thought of no Anthony makes me cry. But im also still filled with anger and wants him to hurt like he hurt me. Thats not healthy! Shouldnt I have a forgiving heart? Do I take him back? Should I stand by my man and cross my fingers that he's changed? Should I let him go completely and move on? Is "she" really a threat or am I that insecure with myself that im overreacting?

My mind keeps telling me to go, but my heart wants to stay. That vengeful hearted alter ego of mine keeps singing that new Beyonce song, "The Best Thing I Never Had."

I HATE Bitchyonce... But im feeling the song.


The Best Thing I Never Had Lyrics

What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)

There was a time
I thought, that you did everything right
No lies, no wrong
Boy I, must've been outta my mind
So when I think of the time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
Thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
So baby good lookin' out

[Chorus]
I wanted you bad
I'm so through with it
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'm gon' always be the best thing you never had
I bet it sucks to be you right now

So sad, you're hurt
Boo hoo, oh, did you expect me to care?
You don't deserve my tears
I guess that's why they ain't there
When I think that there was a time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
Thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
Baby good lookin' out

[Chorus]
I wanted you bad
I'm so through with it
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
I said, you turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'll never be the best thing you never had
Oh baby I bet sucks to be you right now

I know you want me back
It's time to face the facts
That I'm the one that's got away
Lord knows that it would take another place, another time, another world, another life
Thank God I found the good in goodbye

[Chorus]
I used to want you so bad
I'm so through it that
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I will always be the, best thing you never had.
Best thing you never had!

I used to want you so bad
I'm so through it that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
Oh you turned out to be the best thing I never had
Oh I will never be the best thing you never had
Oh baby, I bet it sucks to be you right now

Goes around, comes back around
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now
Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now